Glass Case of Emotion

Glass Case of Emotion

Father God I am trapped
I am trapped by my fear of the great unknown
Free me from myself Lord, lift me up in my time of need
My God be present in my life
Bring my the comfort you have promised, heal me from the inside out.
You are my light and my salvation
I shall not fear
I shall not fear
You are my strength and my comfort
I shall not fear
I shall not fear
Father God I am trapped, Set me Free!

We Shall See Landfall

I have written another song, I hope you like it.

We Shall See Landfall

In over our heads we have exhausted all possibilities
Our human efforts have proven to be a waste and our earthly wisdom is useless
The seas continue to roar and the winds don't cease
The Master continues to sleep

Don't you care that we are going to die (x3)

Peace, Be Still (x3)

Why do you fear Oh where is your faith
Hear my promise and believe
You will see landfall, you will be safe

Are you there God? It's me.

ALONE!

Do you like the feeling of being alone? neither do I and that is how I felt just about all day. I think being or feeling alone is a very dark and scary feeling. A feeling that God doesn't want us to feel.

I felt truly alone today. I was out, with a band that I met here in Albania. They are some cool guys, but the spirit is not in them. Today, I was alone. I felt Satan's power of the world. I felt his angels in the world, working and hardening hearts and turning people away from their creator. And to be honest, it made me want to curl up and die. I don't think we were created to be alone. Even Jesus knew the necessity of companionship. We see this in The Gospel of Mark 14:32-42.

Here we see Jesus facing his impending doom head on. He knows he's about to be betrayed, and he knows he is about to suffer. And he doesn't want to face it alone. So he asks his 3 best and closest friends to be with him and keep watch. Peter, James, and John. But guess what. They fall asleep. How terrible Jesus must have felt. Jesus is facing death and all he wants is his best friends to be with him, and they dessert him because they are a little tired. We know the rest of the story. I don't say that to make light of it, but we do know the story.

My emphasis was on the fact that even the king of the world needed companionship and friendship in the spirit. We live in a dark world, don't try and face it alone. Be bold, be courageous, but do it with community, have accountability have friends. Don't be alone.

I encourage you to step up to the challenge and create the unity in the spirit. Go out and find the person who is alone, start a group that is all about christian community. Don't wait for it to come to you because it won't. I am telling you this from experience. Companionship is a necessity, and I believe with every aspect of my being that we were meant to be together. So let's live it.

God Bless.

But...

We are all guilty of using the word "but". It's part of our human nature. We are beings of condition. We are beings that like things, BUT, if it hurts us or costs us something, we seem to complain or we let it go all together.

I have been thinking this quite a bit today and this is my thought. If we made a list of our this or that, BUT we would have a long list and I believe it would look pretty silly and pathetic.

I love you, BUT I don't like you.
I will help you, BUT I won't enjoy it.
I will teach, BUT I know nothing good will come out of it.
I know what to do, BUT I can't do it.

The list can, and does go on. But, the point of this post was to look at Jesus. These are some of the things I see Jesus and God saying all the time. The list, to me, looks something different.

I know that creation will turn and forget me, BUT I will create them anyway.
I know they will ignore my laws and commands, BUT I will give them a way to come back to me.
I know they will reject me and persecute me, BUT I will go down and die anyway.
I know I could turn these stones into bread, BUT man does not live on bread alone.
I know I am innocent, BUT I lay my life down so that others may live.
I know that I am scared, BUT I am going anyway.

But...Nothing is what I have to say for myself. I have no right complaining or arguing about anything. So, let's go out there and be Jesus.

I know I am a sinner, BUT I am redeemed. So I am trying to live like it.

God Bless.

Beauty of Silence

There are times that I absolutely despise myself. I hate being prideful and I hate belittling people, and I hate trying to put myself on a pedestal. But guess what, I do it every day. And chances are, you do to.

Walking home tonight I was unusually quiet. A friend spoke up and asked me why I was so quiet. My answer was quick and simple. This what I said:

" I was thinking about my speech. I was thinking that, if I never belittled someone, or made myself look better than someone, nor did I make fun of someone, I would probably be silent."

And I was. I have the hardest time being humble. Many people know that. (Thanks for pointing it out!) My whole life I have ignored the simple saying, " If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all." I have always had to say something. I have always had to prove something, or always had to defend myself.

I recently looked up the definition of "Humble" and this is what I got.

Humble- having or showing a consciousness of one's shortcomings; modest.

That's what I lack. I admit that I have faults and tell people I am no good all the time. But I don't act like it. Still deep down I act as though I am the best, and I never mess up. What arrogance. What foolishness. Take it from me. It's a life of misery. It's really pathetic how I sound when at the end of the day, I play the things I have said over in my head. It makes me ill. Please learn from me, be humble.

But it's one thing to know something, and another to realize and apply something. You can't be humble if you talk all the time. Maybe that is an arrogant thing to say. Maybe I am the only one who can't be humble and talk all the time. But I think it is universally true.

I think of Jesus. The Bible records him preaching a lot. But I always see him sitting at a well, or in a synagogue. But what about all the times we don't read about Jesus. What about those long walks from place to place with his apostles. I wonder if he were quiet most of the time. I would love to spend time around Jesus and see if he really did talk a lot.

The Bible records Moses being the most humble man in the Bible. I wonder how that happened. He spent a lot of time by himself. Running all the way from Egypt to Midian and then being a shepherd for Jethro's sheep. He probably didn't talk much. Spending time in meditation and prayer is probably what he did a lot of his time.

I am starting to see a connection. I pray from humility every day. But still I catch myself, or others catch me, slipping up. I add my two cents when it doesn't matter. It's the small things that drive me nuts. A little attack there and a little defense there. What does it matter? What am I trying to defend? Jesus is the only perfect one, and when he had a chance to defend himself, he was silent, like a sheep led to the slaughter. I am becoming silent. I am becoming humble. I am becoming like Jesus.

Oh, the beauty of silence.

"Humble yourselves before the lord and he will exalt you." James 4:10

Unveiling Truth

This is another song that I have written. I like to write a lot it seems like. This is just another expression of what's been on my heart here in Albania.

Unveiling Truth

What is it going to take
What needs to be done for you to believe
I pray that the eyes of your heart may be opened
I hope one day you accept the truth that looms over you

If it's evidence you want there is plenty
If it's proof you desire open your eyes and see
For everyone who asks receives
Everyone who seeks finds
Kock and the door shall be opened

The truth is constant
The facts don't change
Ignorance is not bliss and you will soon have hell to pay
Open your eyes and see
Humble yourself and believe
Accept the truth and live

Bed of Roses

This is just a song I wrote today. Not to long, but when you pause and add breakdowns and sweet riffs, it will make for a pretty good song.


Bed of Roses

you better wake up
time is not on your side
wake up and smell the roses
for even they will soon die
this is not a game
He's coming back and he plays for keeps
there will be no more chances
excuses will not suffice

wake up
wake up
you better wake up

brood of vipers
you can't escape the end
a time is coming when judgment will come
you can't run and you can't hide
here's you chance the time is ticking
the end is near and his justice will be served
don't walk away don't turn your back

wake up
wake up
you better wake up!